I’m honestly worried that at any moment I could have a heart attack.
This is not how I pictured life at 36.
I’m a slightly overweight mother of an almost three year old. I eat a diet consisting of some fruits and veggies but I’ll be honest here; fast food, coffee and takeout have become staples in my life. Along with dessert, not in the homemade apple pie way but in the donuts or pints of ice cream way.
I’m a former pack a day smoker of 15ish years; currently socially imbibing in a few here and there but worried this addiction will come back full force if I continue this way any longer.
I also am a moderate drinker. A 2 glass of wine at night kind of girl. And a social night out may involve a few more than that. Normal ? Possibly. Unhealthy ? Undoubtedy.
In January of this year I applied for a job and got it. Great right. Went for my pre employment physical and could not get medical clearance to start. My blood pressure was 180/110. Did I mention I hate doctors and hadn’t been since my post birth checkup.
I’ve been back and forth to numerous doctors and now have my very own cardiologist. And I’ve graduated to sick person status evidenced by my awesome day night pill counter.
I’m on 2 blood pressure medications taken 3 times a day. I just went for my first echocardiogram and am fearfully awaiting the results.
I’m constantly moody, tired, out of breath and have brain fog most times. My blood pressure has been stable around 120/80, but it’s taking a lot of medication to keep it there.
I decided I need a drastic change, because I’m convinced if I don’t do something soon there’s no way I will be here for much longer. My father had a triple bypass in his 50s and passed at 64. My mother has chronic hypertension and suffered a mild heart attack in her 50s.
‘What the health’ and ‘Forks over knives’ both spoke to me in a way that I feel I need to just jump right in and really try to take control of my health.
Tomorrow is Monday, the day everyone likes to take on new challenges so here I am. I’m all in.
No meat, dairy, sugar, alcohol or nicotine. Instead I’ll be eating plants and whole grains, drinking water and tea. I hope to add some exercise in, even just walking; but the focus is going to be on the things going into my body.
It’s not going to be easy but it will be worth it.